He is a useless parent says my baby

My daughter was talking to me about how we should break marriage with papa. She doesn’t know the word divorce yet. Incredible though it seems, I have managed to get by all these months with explaining the situation but without using the term. She came up with this idea of breaking up on her own. She asked me about how I got married to a bad person.

So I told her that no matter happened in the marriage, “I am glad I have you.” To which she asked, “Do you need a part of a papa to make a baby?’ I said, yes. And her reaction was precious, “So at least he was useful for that. He is not useful any more. He is not useful as a parent.” That’s my seven year old. Drawing the right conclusion and being matter of fact about it. I am proud of the way she has handled what happened to her. She asks me about what he did to me and I always tell her that I will tell her when she grows up and not now. It is heart breaking to have such an understanding child who has coped with our situation and is helping me cope as well because I don’t have to worry a lot about her. I worry but I know she will be fine 🙂 And that I think is the first time, I used a smiley on this blog.

When I will not be there…

Through every trial
After every triumph
I will be there

When you slump
Or hit a bump
I will be there…….

Oh no no no….Stop. I can’t!

I wish I could tell you words like that
Things that a little girl should hear
But the world we live in is in fact
A place that is filled with what I fear

No matter who you contact
In any stage of life or sphere
If any of them ever detract
Your worth, steer clear

On this special day let’s make a pact
That I will teach you to persevere
So you can choose the way you react
To those who cheat or are insincere

I can’t guarantee how everybody will act
Or make evil disappear
What I can do is in fact
Help you grow strong my dear!

The monster has a friend

Apparently, people think that monsters should have access to children.

Yes. I kid you not. There is a guy who professes to be a mutual friend but really is the monster’s friend and thinks that despite not knowing the hell that we have gone through, my daughter would be safe with the monster.

I wish people like that rot in a special kind of hell alongside the monster. This friend has a little girl of his own. Why doesn’t he give his little girl to the monster to hit and hurt. Shit I would never ever say anything bad about a child, but I am so livid especially at this moron with a Messiah complex who thinks he can lecture me without knowing anything.

Every night I tell my child that the monster loves her. I know it to be a lie. But, she is only six and deserves to be loved. I can’t tell her how he is. She knows hitting is bad and she knows no matter who does it, we don’t tolerate it. That is enough.